Sunday, November 9, 2008

Update: Chris

I too, like James, have not been disciplined enough in posting. It is hard for me because I enjoy talking, but have typically despised writing.

-I'm married, and trying to figure that out, especially what it means to lead my wife spiritually right now, because our schedules are currently conflicting so much, and mine changes from week to week so there's not really a way to solidify any kind of scheduled plan or anything.

-I'm trying to figure out what to do with my life, and it is wearing me out. I don't know if any of you have ever actually gotten tired from a feeling that you weren't really doing anything, but that's me right now. I don't know if it is a good thing or a bad thing but I have never really enjoyed doing any one thing for too long, so I know getting a job and trying to climb the corporate ladder just is not going to work for me. But, right now if anything were to happen, such as a car going kapoot or accidentally getting pregnant, it would throw us over the top as far as money goes. So trying to figure out how to provide for my wife, especially admist the tumultousness of today's economy is very stressful. Add that to the fact that we just don't know how it will get any better because of the sheer size of my school debt, and it is a tad bit overbearing.

-I'm trying to volunteer at my church with my free time but that's been shaky at best.

-I'm down for trying to make a meeting, would be best for me if it was a day actually before Christmas.

-Love you.

2 comments:

Unknown said...

hey buddy i sensed some despair in your post. Thinking i can speak for the married segment of our circle there is this built in need (at least in my life) to provide spiritually physically emotionally financially for Lisa. I think that's good to an extent. If i perfectly provided for her in any or all of those areas then i'd be stepping into God's role.

We'd tell anyone. our first year of marriage was hard on several levels. (not saying yours is bad by contrast)but our second year, third year all were exponentially better.

I know nothing about $$ wish i did but with the economy down are interest rates down? could you do something like refinance your school loan into something with a lower interest rate so at least you won't have to eat that too?

James said...

I'm really sorry Chris. I wish there were some way to help. Those big, intangible concerns are the hardest to make peace, any kind of peace, with.